jess

songs....

2008-05-25T19:38:01Z

(this is so hard! music always depends on my mood...)

Starlight - Muse
I'm listening to this song. It starts with:
"Far away'
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die"
I feel like this ship is my life and it's just taking my far away from where I start. I don't know if it's good and bad, I guess these things are always both. Sometimes I feel like I grow apart from people, I guess it's natural so I usually don't notice it but I try to avoid it when it happens. It feels like when you think of your memories that it's a long time ago not because it is just because things have become so different. I don't think I've really grown apart from people I care about it's more that I've grown apart from who I was when I was younger. I've just learned so much from myself and other people.

" Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore"
There's always something people want in life, this starlight. They try to get it their entire life but in the end it might not be worth it. I guess I'm not stubborn about what I want. I don't want to waste my life on something I'm not sure if I'll have. Life is short when people are so focused on one thing, I think there are just so many oppurtunities and options. This starlight isn't just one thing, it can be anything. I think it's more about perception than reality. If I see going to High School as my starlight I guess I already have it, but I'm not sure what it is yet.

The song makes me feel that I'm unsure of where I'll be in my life. Well of course I am because who knows what will happen? I'm sure about my future in education and what I want to study, things career-wise but all that doesn't really mean anything. I always wonder what I will do in my spare time, where I'll go, what I'd do or if I'll ever meet people exactly like me, it kind of scares me - but it'd be interesting.
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Just A Girl - No Doubt

There's parts of the song that are like me.
" The moment that I step outside
So many reasons
For me to run and hide
I can't do the little things I hold so dear
'Cause it's all those little things
That I fear "
Things that make me nervous and scared to do things are usually little, it's not like there's a big Gorilla waiting outside to kill me or a Shark that's going to swallow me alive, but I just feel scared. When it says little, it's not really like spiders (which are creepy as hell) I see it more as something emotional that you just can't get over. An example would be that it scares me when I see a teacher that hates me or I hate outside of the class (don't worry it's not you Mr. Ross!), it's not really anything but I just don't want to see them because it bothers me. Or sometimes I don't want to leave my house because I might see someone I really don't like that lives near me and I don't want to see them, it really shouldn't bother me because it's one of those little things, but it just does. I'll get over it, well actually I kind of am most of the time. It's just one of those annoying little things that stop you from doing what you want to do.
" Oh I'm just a girl. My apologies
What I've become is so burdensome"
I interpret this as a bit sarcastic in the song. I don't apologize for who I am because there's nothing I can change. If I do something wrong or mean I will say that I'm sorry because that wouldn't be nice if I didn't and I can always learn and prevent behaving like that again, but being a girl or being whatever it is I am that I was born as - there's nothing I could do about that. I'm not the type to start a fight for no reason and I'm not the person to give apologies for no good reason either.
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What I Like About You - The Romantics

This song reminds me of the good and fun times I have! It brings back those stress-free times (which is so long ago)! I think the song is just very natural because the lyrics aren't so complicated that it looks like a different language. It just makes me feel very carefree and want to have fun which is naturally who I am, but nurture (school,parents, SOCIETY) forces me to do all the boring things like homework and study.
" keep on whispering in my ear tell me all the things that i wanna hear
cuz its true thats what i like about you "
I wish life would tell me all the things I wanted to hear!
The song just reminds me the positives in life because almost every line in the song is the guy talking about what he likes about this girl, but at the same time it's not some really serious song, it's just this fun song. Anyways I don't like to take my life so seriously, it's not fun. I feel like the song has no regrets just like me. I don't really regret anything because there's nothing I can do now to fix it so why care?
Anyways I chose this song also because I like everything about myself, haha I'm just kidding, so not true!
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I can never really have a theme song, these are more like at the moment songs because if this was the blog for next week, I'd probably come up with completely different ones! I don't know ... my life is hard to describe, so I don't really have a theme to it, it's just all so ... UNDEFINED!

2 short assignments, blog 18

2008-05-10T01:02:25Z

Have i typed six words yet?

I hate organizing any paper work.

No brakes? Perfect, take the highway.

:P

Young and super sexy (F, 76) with long silver hair dreads looking foward to meet party animal (but definitely not as crazy or hot as me), no gender preference, preferably not much younger (20-30).

I am in a point of my life where I feel like I really need to settle down. To do this I must have someone who will always be there for me. Someone who will be there for me to carry me after a party when it's 5 in the morning. I also need someone who is supportive - that means he or she cannot overshadow my presence at an important event (although it is highly unlikely this will happen), but at the same time makes me look even more fabulous. Someone who knows and can tell me how to use my medication will be very helpful. Someone who can pay for or get me free botox - always a plus because my bills have been piling up lately.

I am not into people with the natural look it makes me look like I'm wearing too much makeup when reality I define perfection. I don't like people who talk, preferably never ever talks back. The most important trait is to be able to listen and obey my words. I cannot be with someone disrespectful. Occasionally they may talk if it concerns the tasks I assign them or something I don't mind hearing(example: how should I organize your wigs and weaves? by length or color? OR I worship you ). Preferably has had cosmetic surgery before - like me, must be between the hotness range of 40% as hot as me to 60% as hot as me (no one in this world ranks over an 80). Also must be willing to paint my 5 inch nails for me and condition my dreads daily.

more about me
most eye catching part of me: hair
best quality: everything
worst quality: none
what makes me special: see "best quality"

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(it says write a few paragraphs but in the examples they are only a few sentences *????* so i just wrote a few paragraphs in case)

17

2008-05-01T03:57:04Z

(this reminds me of the past style thing? kinda? doing it hella early again so there's time to study on weekends T_T sooo stressful....)

Dear (smaller, middle schoolish) Jess,

        You are such a lazy bum. Haha, nah I'm joking, no actually I'm not, but someday you will be hardworking...more ish. Maybe if you realized how important it is to do well and actually try, before 10th grade sophomore year, maybe I would be less stressed right now? see it's all your fault....

Here I've made a list of tips along with some random notes:

   Remember to ignore when your parents when they bitch because talking back doesn't help because you'll just end up having puffy red tear filled eyes.

    Don't be mean to people for no reason... it's not nice you know. Be more forgiving to people. Don't act or react in a way to others that you would not appreciate yourself. Don't leave problems just sitting there... actually try to solve them. Ignore people who have no reason to be mean because you shouldn't care about the opinions of someone you don't respect.

    Don't watch so much TV. It's not because of how bad it is for your eyes, because your vision will never go blury no matter how much TV you watch, it's just not good for your brain!

    You know you should actually try, don't get away with an ok grade because you're smart, nothing works like that in the future. You should actually try, I can't believe you don't feel bad for not trying... unless it's PE that's ok, because I still don't try in PE but then you shouldn't be completely like me...

   Never buy not-hella-cheap mechanical pencils, because usually people steal them anyways (or borrows but never give them back because they forget). All your pencils will be gone in a few months.

    Your Spanish is terrible for someone from Puerto Rico, the only words you will learn will be like huevos, ch*p*, meird*, c*br*n and "que?"

    You are such a flawed child but I still like you because you are always honest and never ass kiss . You are pretty intelligent for your age and good at art but that's all I can say ... suck balls at ceramics though, paints beautifully (as in *I* paint beautifully...or I guess that'syou in the future)

    In the future you will find interest in many things you did not before. I'm like a quality version of you, why am I being so mean? Because I know you won't start crying like some other pussy kids (anyways wouldn't you want me to be a quality version of you? I'm your future remember?). Yeah you still won't ever cry when you get injured or hurt but you'll start crying easily like a complete weener when you're confused or mad. You might suffer a bit for a while for being lazy but you will learn. Don't think about anything that makes you really unhappy especially if there is nothing you an do, it's pointless. You're alot nicer now and better in many ways. You'll like making and giving candy for people during halloween but you hate trick-or-treating. You don't really like turkey. Really random stuff, I know, oh yeah you can be pretty random. Focus! Never mind... that's too hard. You still hate homework and school but you only do it so you can try to get into an ivy like Darthmouth (well you won't go to Princeton like duh obviously) not because education is soooo important to you but more because education=better job=more money to spend! You've changed alot but you are still the same in ways. You will never depend on others to save your own ass, it's just not in your nature to expect something out of anyone other than yourself. You like to be honest because it's hard for you to lie. Sometimes it hurts but you'll learn to make it acceptable or don't say anything. You don't lie but not saying anything isn't lying right? Also you'll tell collegboard that you're Puerto Rican so you can get into private schools more easily. You'll still have a really short attention span, not very good at focusing at something for a long time. You'll learn to pay attention but every few minutes it will be slightly disrupted by random thoughts.

    I guess I shouldn't tell you too much to get your hopes up into thinking you will magically become... improved, you really have to work for things. Well I give you credit for art, keep working, you'll be more than a drawer and more of an artist. I won't tell you how because then you won't be an artist! You have to find it on your own. Remember school is important too. I can't tell you too much start doing something thats not pointless and you'll see what I'm talking about.

#16 - more random thoughts

2008-04-17T03:14:35Z

(Wow, another homework that totally helps with my inability to focus by encouraging me to be even more random than I already am! Thanks...)

My hands smell like dried seaweed from making sushi. I'm not Japanese but sushi is quick, tasty and healthy, not to mention very easy to make. I was horrified when I couldn't find the sushi rolling thing when I had already spent a whole 3 and a half minutes gathering materials and preparing them, but then I found it. That's like one of every Asian person's nightmares. OK I'm just kidding, it's actually running out of soy sauce and not having an emergency supply.

I remember in middle school Spanish class, Mr. DeBall made us make food and bring it to school so I chose to make something hella easy like salsa. I didn't know where I got my crappy recipe from, it did say authentic salsa, but it told me to put soy sauce and oyster sauce I was confused so I just did and it told me to put only 3 tiny little chili peppers but I love spicy food so I was like hell no so I added about 20 of them. No one ate the salsa, they all complained it was too spicy and the one guy who said it wasn't said it tasted like sushi.

Hey Rainbow, if you are reading this I just want to tell you that your hair kind of reminds me of the cat in biology that Ms. Pfeifer was talking about that was being cloned from another cat. Your hair just has that weird bright orange pattern with weird black and yellow spots in it. It looks very natural on cats, but not so much on humans. I thought I've seen some pretty bad hair bleaching, but yours just tops the list. Like I thought Fernando Torres' fake long goldilocks were bad but yours blows the competition out of the water. I can't help but make fun of you because it's really your own fault that you chose to look like that. (p.s. my hair matches Afro-Ken's way better than yours does, straight black+rainbow 'fro > fuzzy bright orange+rainbow 'fro)

Dear God, I'm atheist, Jess.

I wonder if Michael Jackson's nose comes off...

If I don't make it to AP Physics I will burst into tears. I hate Chemistry, it reminds me of Biology, which I hate so much that sometimes when I'm studying I wish everything in this world would just DIE and the subject will just perish. Of course I only get those psychotic thoughts while cramming under the living room light very late at night.

I think I read the book Things Fall Apart before because Sophie had the book on her desk (which looked different than the one passed out to me) and the cover reminded me that I had the same book at home (which is probably lost... somewhere at home though...). I don't remember anything except how the cover looked like. I read it when I was probably 12 at ATDP (annoying summer class my parents put me in), well actually I didn't really read it. I guess I did read it but just REALLY REALLY REALLY fast. I wasn't a good student at all back then... I wrote an essay, but I forgot all about it. At least that class improved my writing but reading, not so much. There was Frakenstein and Macbeth which I did attempt to read because they were shorter but I just opened them and was like... WHAT?!

Are the seats in the bart supposed to be blue? Because whatever happens to them, sometimes they look kind of green...

I think PE is kind of pointless because it is probably only worth 20 minutes of excercise. Half the people just stand their and pretend to participate. Anyways after PE most people just get hungry and eat a whole bunch of crap that will develop into unhealthy food addiction and cause obesity in the future if not now, which I don't think 20 minutes 3 times a week resolves at all. It's recommended that people should excercise an hour a day. If the school really wants us to be fit they should send us all to fat camp or celebrity fit club, ok it's the same thing. Anyways girls have tons of issues, that should excuse us! Plus the new stuff we're doing is TERRIBLE. During tennis I was nearly murdered 3 times and I nearly suicide in tumbling.

Annoying people are annoying because they don't know that they are annoying, and it's impossible to let them know how annoying they are being by hinting that they are annoying because they don't get it which is really annoying. But then you can't tell them that they are annoying because annoying people are born annoying and that would just be mean. I've used the word "annoying" an annoying number of times that its annoying me, like annoying people.

I love Rilakkuma and Afro Ken! I just got a key chain of Rilakkuma, which was a total rip-off, but since it was so pee-in-my-pants-cute I had to get it. My Afro Ken was a rip off too, his shipping cost me 10$. Shipping is such a rip off. I wanted to buy something on this English website but the shipping was 10 pounds, so I was like hell no bitch that's 20$, forget it! Shipping costs more than the actual thing itself! I need more Afro Ken stuff though, I guess I'll just buy a fake one for hella cheap and dye him cool colors!

If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all, but if you are going to say something mean anyways, might as well spit it all out.

Getting a D is like the most annoying grade to ever get on a test. It's not like I-did-bad-but-atleast-I-past, like a C but it's not like fuck-it-I-just-straight-up-failed like an F, it's just in between. What's even more annoying than a D is a D plus or minus. A D- is extremely irritating because you ALMOST fail, just ALMOST, you already have a D but they just put a minus to make you burst into tears. But a D+ is even worse than a D- because it's close to a C but still it's always a D. "You got a D but you got a D PLUS" no one cares, I still fail. They just put a plus so it's like you get a plus but it's still a D, and you burst into more tears. It's like "you fail" and then a poke+hehe, no it's not funny! Thank god I only get these types of grades in AP Biology.

Math is the best class ever because there's little to no studying involved, as long as you do the homework you will get it. It's the easiest important class ever. Not to mention there's no participation grade and most importantly no group projects. Why do I usually hate group projects? Because they never are group projects.

Why am I thinking so much about school? Maybe because this is a homework assignment?

I hate that joke where people tell you your hand is bigger than your face. REALLY? SMACK! OW!... f*ck you...

The weirdest dream I've had that I can remember right now is when I was in a dark forest and walked into some creepy house or trailer I forgot. Anyways the walls were really dirty but then suddenly I see the creepy grudge boy running around and disappearing. I get really scared so I put my back against a wall, but it's like a fabric-ish wall and someone stabs me. I die. Then I go to the library and read books about magic whirlpools.

I love strawberries, when I'm old I'm going to murder all the strawberries in the world and eat them.

WORST SPRING BREAK EVER

2008-04-09T23:31:04Z

GRRR >:O
i went to sf to see the stupid olympic torch and we waited for like 2 hours and found out that they changed the route so we wouldnt be able to see it. it was a complete waste of time. all i saw was some very hateful stuff
i'm offended and shocked by the number of brainwashed and uneducated people i saw :(

what a shitty champions league tuesday

2008-04-08T21:05:38Z

such a sad day for gooners :( stupid liverpoop wins and now poor arsenal is out
i really thought they would win this season, it just hurt to watch all their hard work this season, beating milan being at the top of league and see them throw it all away
stupid fernando torres almost made me cry for like 15 minutes and then adebayor saves arsenal and suddenly im cheering again less than 10 seconds later stupid liverpoop gets a pk and makes a goal and im depressed again. i officially hate steven gerrard. well i already hated that bitch but its like forever now.
stupid liverpoop fans made a sign that said scousers rule the world (how pathetic) and i hate how they sing all the time its annoying

i don't know what killed my eyes the most
seeing flamini injured, seeing the PK or the end of the game, seeing cesc fabregas amazingjesussuperpowerness fade or seeing f. torres score? T_T
if torres was part of arsenal, arsenal would definitely be the champions of every competition why did he have to go to stupid liverpoop? i don't know how many times my blood pressure drastically changed - watching football is very bad for health....
when the painful game was over i just thought whatever, because football clubs change and spain's national team is still the best and unbeatable
but it just got worse to see poor little cesc fabrega's expression he wanted it so bad :(
it just tore every person in this world's heart apart (because everyone hearts cesc)
im so sad T_T

i hope barcelona takes the trophy home now, i dont want to see any not arsenal english club win it
i cant even watch the next game now because i dont want to torture myself with thoughts of poor arsenal
if manure united wins my eyeballs will fall out

spring break

2008-04-08T04:39:55Z

great right? NOT im doing my stupid history project and its boring as hell

LOL

2008-03-31T05:08:16Z

GOOD NEWS FOR AP BIO! atleast i think, not sure dont have reliable source other than my common sense

2008-03-30T20:33:27Z

Since there is only 3 study guides left in the last folder, well I think it is the last folder - that means there's only 3 more chapters of hell and then we're done!
I remember at the beginning of the year, Ms. Pfeifer said she would leave time at the end to review for the AP Exam and other wonderful crap like the finals and SAT Subject.
All we have is the review essays! YAY! I wonder what we will do after the AP Exam probably watch more HHMI Lectures.
The bad news is that I only have 3 more chapters to raise my grade, but it's good news for everyone who's doing well.

TV REVIEW

2008-03-22T04:33:25Z

*I haven't watched anything I like lately because for me there's not much TV to watch anymore :( Project Runway is over and the next season is ... next YEAR and there's no more good reality TV on vh1/mtv, and next CL is in 2 weeks but that's not a show*

**this show isn't on TV anymore.. but I'm special so...**
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Reality television is not only a great source of entertainment but also brings the viewer the vivid art and education of four letter words. So many reality TV shows these days but REALITY is that there is one queen who reigns above with her show. Of course I am talking about Ms. New York, no not the pageant queen, the one from the TV show I Love New York. Contrary to what most people think, New York is definitely a natural beauty. You may think that she would be a drag queen's idol, but did you know that her weave is made out of REAL HUMAN HAIR? AND did you know that her dramatic eyelashes , that put those from the 60's to shame, are made out of horse fur? Plastic is so not this decade. (note: her breasts are silicon- not PLASTIC, do not confuse this!)

Anyways our lovely New York is on a quest to find the man right for her once again (after her ass was dumped on the reunion show). With the help of her mother Sister Patterson, who is equally kind and pleasing if not more, she hopes to be successful this time. Some viewers may believe that certain people are cast only to make the show more interesting. LIES! When have TV producers ever done this? Anyways, we all know that the TV producers love New York dearly. HELLO? why do you think the show is called I Love New York? They obviously want to pick her the best candidates that suit her lifestyle. It just happens to be that the candidates her own mother picked for her were "better" for her. Well, the producers aren't shallow they obviously want to find someone right for her. Maybe this time it will be a nerd, a midget or a big muscular man with a small head, you know they all have different stuff to offer. It's not like New York is only into money or outside appearances. It's just that receiving gifts for her is a spiritual connection that she can not deny. New York cannot be bought. Although she can be persuaded with gifts, but that's obviously a completely different issue. Anyways there's solid concrete proof that she is definitely not shallow, I mean it took her 5 whole episodes to eliminate those "unsuitable" contestants.

There is one main reason why you cannot miss out on this brilliant show - the DRAMA. Those who can't get their hearts pumping through exercise, I Love New York is the show for you. No time to go to the gym? That's alright, just sit your ass down and watch television and let the drama increase your heart beat by 7 whole beats per minute for 25 seconds. Plus, drama is usually violent and loud, completely disrespectful, but I Love New York is able to capture the whole fight in a classy respectful way. So what if someone yells "I'll [bleep]ing kill you!", do they actually do it? It's not like America is being showed blood. We do see spit though. Still, all there is are some one syllable words being screamed, that are often paired with a short catchy beeping music.

stars:
1 for the shows brilliant cast
2 more for the drama
1 another for the spit
1 and last one because we love new york
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FIVE STARS! *****

*** BLOG DONE***
READ PLEASE
(note: I Love New York is a reality TV show on vh1 with Tiffany Pollard who was on Flavor of Love 1 and 2, dumped so she had her own show but was dumped on the reunion show and now she has I Love New York 2. She's actually with the guy she chose who is balding but buys her nice stuff. I know it's a dumb show but I love watching it because of all the stuff that happens. I hope they break up so there's a season 3)

*why is everything in the beginning in stars? because I didn't want to parentheses abuse on another blog, so I decided to star-abuse which is ok because it's a review*

my day ... (weirdest ever)

2008-03-14T04:59:36Z

"don't be more than 20% unrealistic." uh...
and no i don't love albany :(

Well I'm in a weird mood so it's only right if I write a strange story (somewhat logical)...

I wake up in the morning I try to get out of bed but it usually takes me 20 minutes because I am now 70 years old (holy shit how did that happen?). Today is the day. The day I will do everything I never had the balls to do in the past 70 years of my life. I will face all of my fears and more. I have a whole bunch of money that I saved from before I was retired. I decide to spend a good load of it. It doesn't matter if I blow it all off on stupid stuff because it's my money, and my children have good jobs they don't need anything and my husband doesn't need anything either because he's dead. Anyways, I go and put in my fake teeth (brush them first of course) and leave the house. I drive my way to an amusement park. I'm there for one reason only - to jump off from hella high being attached to one of those cords, my warm up for today. I walk up to the line and they tell me that I'm too old and people over the age of 50 should NOT be part of this. It's a good thing I got botox the day before so I only looked a bit above that age limit. I go into the bathroom and pile on about 20 pounds of makeup, it's amazing I look about 47 now. I stand in line again. They attach me to the to the line and push me off. I feel like flying and dying, barfing at the same time. When they detach me I collapse forward but the person who works at this ride picks me up as I'm wheezing and I stand again. I finished the warm-up. It's only about 8:00 am, I head back to my car.

I drive to a fancy restaurant for breakfast. I order from their menu of delicious "foods". I decide to order eyeballs and frog with other slimy animals. I drive for the next 4 hours and get to a remote haunted house. I enter with some people who hunt ghosts. We walk in, there's these strange noises, it is obviously posessed by bad spirits. We walk down into the basement, the most posessed area, where it is rumored to contain a dead body. We open the door, it is locked at first but the crew of ghost hunters burst the door, it makes me a bit nervous because it's not the best thing to do in a haunted house, it will disturb the spirits, but then I am old, so I am able to remain calm. A burst of dust makes the room blurry. Suddenly a strong negative energy fills the room and a voice cries GET OUT. I run my 70 year old ass out, but I look back and the ghost hunters are still standing in the room, it looks like a grey glowing figure is in there with them. I sprint (really slow, I still can't run) and get out of this house and back to my car and drive away as fast as possible. There's a bunch of scatches on my limbs.

My car is on the freeway 150 miles an hour. It's quite remote here so I won't crash into any other cars. There's only about four other cars anyways. Suddenly the police is following me so I speed even faster to get away from them but they are right behind me. There's a river in front of this road. A little bridge makes a way to the other side but I realize the bridge is...broken. So I drive as fast as I can and fly over the big gap in the bridge. The police stop following me. I drive for 20 more miles and realize I have a flat tire, so I just decide to take the big empty truck on the side of the road. It probably belongs to someone and I guess it's wrong to just take it but I have important business to do. I bend down to pick up a stick and draw a heart in the sand as a thank you to whoever the car belongs to. It was a lot for me to do, my back cracked really loudly. The truck is really slow, and is almost out of gas I drive to the nearest gas station and pump gas. There's this tough looking guy over at the corner drunk. I drive past him and start bitching about random stuff like get a job. He gets mad and throws bottles at me. I start driving away and he bangs on the truck and starts to throw rocks. He cusses and calls me an old lady, and I should mind my own business. I've had a long day but I had one last thing to do. I arrive at the valley there's a helicopter waiting for me.

The last task is sky diving. I get on the plane. It rises over the mountains and I see the sun slowly setting, my day is almost over. I don't just jump off, I release myself and magically fall off the plane. My fake teeth fly out of my mouth because I'm squawking like crazy. The air rushes around me, I feel tension in my blood like I'm never going to stop falling. Then I die. I die from fear overload. I hit the ground, but I don't know that because I'm dead.

(painting)

2008-03-07T03:09:12Z

I noticed this one first. Well of course I saw the painting of the pipe first but I really thought about this one when I looked over the 5 paintings. The first thing I see is the focus on that one light pole radiating light on the black background, then my eyes scan the rest of the painting. It is interesting because the woods and the blackness of it along with the contrast of indoor light coming through the window and the reflections in the water show that it is night time but as you look up the sky is bright blue with fluffy white clouds. Logically the painting doesn't "make sense". (Naturally) If the sky was bright the trees could be dark but the tip of the building on the right would not be dark (it would be lighted) and it would gradually darken as it comes near the ground. The brightness of the sky contrasts so strongly with the darkness of the forest (unnatural). So I looked at this for a while and thought, because there has to be a meaning behind this painting (that's not directly presented).

I think that the painting is supposed to mean that in the world real darkness doesn't come from smog or nighttime, but society. What is happening among people and countries is what determines whether we live in the light or darkness. I think it's like we have become so civilized (compared to our beginning when we were cave people) that the condition of the environment doesn't effect so much on our lives, because technology always provide us medicine and food now. We will always turn to technology to fix these problems. For people now (in cities) life isn't about making a fire with two sticks and hunting a deer with a spear, it's always about an event or politics. This is the world we live in and not earth. Our minds live in a separate place from our bodies. We live for what happens in our thoughts. In this painting I think it's trying to contrast this. Also the light in the house shows that there are people living inside (most likely, unless there's spirits in there o_O), its the people who are living in darkness. The light itself might symbolize how some people try to form groups and organizations to fight what is happening (obviously not the majority of the painting nor are these people the majority of today's population). The light spreads, showing its effect but still doesn't light up the entire forest. Kind of like those environment organizations that help protect the environment and it has an impact but the environment still sucks because they can only affect a few people and most people still don't really care (murder, just kidding). Also now that I've been observing (ahem staring) at this painting for such a long time (yes my eyes hurt)... the sky may be people of higher class and more money so they live in the light but people at the bottom will always live in their shadow and have not so good lives (creepy, not because what I just said was creepy but it totally reminds me of The Bluest Eye and it's creepy that I'm thinking about a book, which means I'm thinking about the homework and study guide...weird...)

When I first saw the painting I didn't really notice the meaning or message behind it but really the painting itself. The contrast (not just between the night and day) in the painting is excellent (like the part where the building lights stand out and even the dark parts like the side of the wall and the green windows, all those details) and the background is nicely done as well. Contrast and background are two things I am very meticulous about in my own paintings. Contrast is important because if there's no contrast than art is like a blob. There's no distinction between objects, it's all a blur ("interesting"). Background is extremely important because that's actually the hardest part (takes me forever), it makes or breaks your entire painting (but then it's usually developed constantly along with objects blah blah ya da yaya). It's nice that the artist puts his message into his art but still shows what beautiful art pieces he is capable of creating. It really doesn't matter what style of art a person creates, I personally believe it should still be able to show the high quality of that artist's basics and fundamentals (this is why I'm not a big fan of bleh- i mean blob art), which is shown in this piece and also the others (I love the painting of a painting one too). I don't really have any of my own messages I want to put in my art pieces, I just like to make beautiful art pieces. Maybe I am one of those "snobby art-dick(s)" (like Mr. Ross describes in the blog prompt), but then I'm obviously not important enough to be called a dick.

(total parentheses abuse in this blog BUT ITS BETTER THAN CAPLOCKS ABUSE <-scary)

ideal life

2008-02-27T05:52:42Z

finishing hw way early so I have time for a less stressful sunday night :P

(what do you mean by you all? i did not request this! I requested something about embarassing moments haha, or it was something like that)

(realistic ideal life)
    If I could have any job it would be a job where I get paid to do almost nothing, or paid for stupid things (like Paris Hilton gets paid to party). But that's not really possible because no one would want to give regular people money for free. I used to want to be a doctor because I thought they made hella money but then I went to my college/career consultant guy and he told me how much they made (alot) but then how long they have to go to school (alot, which was not good because I don't want to waste my youth in school) and for me it is so not worth it. Then he suggested this job that I forgot what the hell it was called but it's a type of financial job. He said that the hours are super flexible, sometimes you only work 5 hours a day and the amount of money you make depends on how much money you manage, so it is possible to make millions($_$), but the minimum (starting pay) for that job is like 100,000 which is not bad and you get hired within 3 months of graduation. He also told me that I would only have to go to school for 4 years after high school and then 1 more year if I'm super special and then off to work (sorry, I forgot what the regular route was but it's also pretty short). The only thing is you have to be really good at math, which luckily I am (and thats the only subject you need to be good that, which fortunately and sadly is also my case). I don't care what my job is as long as it involves stuff I would do (note:cutting organs is not one of them), stuff I can do, and most importantly pays me alot. Money is more important to me than what I do because I can do whatever I like in my freetime, AND work sucks so I'm going to hate my job anyways so why not find one that has more benefits?
    I think I would live in south California. I would live there because the weather is nicer than north California but it's still California, which is the best state(Florida is cool too). I don't have time or the memory capacity to learn a new language and live somewhere else.
    I don't want to have kids, I will probably change my mind in the future. I've been scarred after watching that movie in health class last year where the baby was coming out of that pregnant woman's vagina during birth (o_O) and I was having really bad cramps, never mind. If I did have a kid I would be really nice to my child, I would never abuse my child, I would never take out my anger on him/her or blame them unreasonably. If I did I would sincerely apologize, because sometimes my parents are really unreasonable and never apologize for it and it makes me feel like crap. AND I would never ever accuse them of saying something they never said.
    I wouldn't have pets because I never had pets and it would be a lot of work taking care of them. I like animals but I don't think I would be dedicated enough to take care of them myself.
    I wouldn't eat out alot because I like to cook my own food. The food I make is healthier than resturaunt food and way healthier than fast food. They add lots of oils (fat) and it makes my stomach feel really stuffed and gross, the portions they serve are big too. There are enough obese people in America, not a lot of people have weight problems when they're young, but when they get old...(they inflate).
    During my free time I would go to beaches, art museums and visit my friends. I would go shopping too, but not on a beautiful day, I'd save it for a cloudy dark day because most shopping is indoors anyways. If I went to an art museum I would spend a really long time observing paintings because I want to see all of them and I don't want to pay the often rip off price they charge again any time soon! (except the Getty, it's free but the Villa one you have to reserve tickets)
    If I had alot of money I would give some to people who need it (people who are in extreme poverty,very sad). It would be better if I could actually go and help but I'm kind of a lazy person... (I know I'm terrible) so giving money to them is the easiest way. I don't know maybe when I retire I would go and help them, because I won't have anything else to do anyways. I'll start to donate when I feel like I don't have any bills to pay or other needs. Definitely after 20 years old...

(not so realistic ideal life)
Two Words: Señora Casillas.

11 <- weird # me no like :P

2008-02-17T06:46:57Z

(FINALLY NO SCHOOL FOR A WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!)

I've changed alot from when I was little. I don't really feel changes until I look at past pictures and I'm like whoa... (actually it's more like WTF?! that was me?). In elementary school I didn't even care about clothes or anything at all, I just wore whatever my mom gave me to wore (like she cared what I wore). I guess now that I think of it I was probably like some short chubby monkey girl because I didn't care if there was dirt on me or even (EW!) food stains. Even more grossly I didn't like showers, but my mom still made me. I think that was like my 2nd and 3rd grade years. In 4th and 5th grade I probably wore the same stuff if they still fit, only probably I wasn't as gross.
In middle school I started to care more. Well I didn't care as much as I do now but more than I did when I was in elementary school. It's weird how I actually don't remember much from middle school, I actually know more from elementary school. I think I just tried to erase all my crappy memories before high school (I was depressed, angry, didn't get along with my parents, and thought 99% of people were full of shit). Well I remember that sometimes I would want/need to go shopping and didn't because my parents were too lazy. I didn't have alot of clothes, I looked pretty boring everyday. T shirt, loose jeans, jacket... I didn't like shopping much either because I was really chubby in middle school. I was really not girly in middle school, I sometimes am now but in a not i heart everything pink way (still don't like the color pink :P). My outfits in middle school probably looked bad all the time but atleast my hair looked ok, sometimes. It got really damaged when I used to swim. The chlorine bleached it alot, the ends of my hair were like red/gold brown but really dry, thin and shineless :( (basically DEAD, maybe that's why the most important thing for my hair to be is shiny because it looked like before). The unwashed hair look is also really really bad (hair can look messy, frizzy, but unwashed is yuck)... I wore makeup sometimes for fun in 8th grade, I wasn't very good so I didn't wear it often. I rememeber sometimes in8th-9th grade I wore eyeliner and stuff and it would smear, bad look. I wore lipgloss probably... (gloss=yuck, chapstick=best, that lipgloss song is annoying). I wore dangly/prettier earings sometimes but stopped. My ears are really sensitive to the weight and got infected a few times so now I wear gold studs to prevent them from any reactions.
This year I care about how I look but I don't really care about what other people have to say as long as I like myself :). I don't really have a certain look/style, I don't really like to be classified and labeled. It's not like I'm one of those people who are like oh my god I have to be different from other people (if you ever notice all of THOSE people usually look the same), it's just that I just don't like to be a fixed...thing (???). I don't really wear makeup anymore, sometimes I do but usually I just wear a little mascara and chapstick (if that counts). I never put any powder or anything because that's gross. I have other earrings but I just wear my gold studs every single day because I don't need to take them out when I go to sleep and it's more comfortable. Over accessorizing is scary (example: Bai Ome), I can't really do that because I don't have that many accessories anyways (waste of my money man). I'm not obsessed with appearances because that would take too much time out of life and life is important. But it's still important to look good because it leaves an impression on other people of how you look, even if people say that they're not shallow, everyone is still somewhat shallow (for example wouldn't you be kind of grossed out and not be able to 100% pay attention to what someone is saying if they look like they haven't showered for a week... and smelled?). I go shopping with my friends now in SF because it's fun, I don't like my parents coming with me because 1. they're slow, 2. they're mean and 3. they're annoying and 4. it means my poop bro has to come. I don't wear anything flashy, like sparkly and glittery because its annoying when all the stuff falls off. I like Cute shirt/Tee, jeans and sneakers (flats are cute but really uncomfortable and heels in school is weird). My hair probably looks like a tangled ball of crap after PE (because that's how it feels) but atleast it looks shiny :P

interview 3

2008-02-07T06:21:15Z

again doing this early so no weekend hw :p
yay more interviews they're fun :P

1. Do you believe in karma?
HELL YEAH. Karma will bite that bitch's ass in the end! That's why I don't believe in revenge because time is payback. Patience does pay off! It's revenge in a way but better because you get to watch whoever suffer and your not even doing anything, sit back have a snack, relax. (If you're wondering, I'm in an evil mood)

2. What one current event in any aspect of world news do you think is being most neglected or underrepresented?
I think too much of the news focuses on Bush doing stupid things like war. People should pay more attention to help people than to watch these news and be mad at Americans for what Bush does. There should be more protecting the environment and also helping people in poverty.

3. If you could have any one superpower, what would it be and why?
For some reason I don't really want to have super powers. I guess it would be to be able to walk through things because everytime I bump into the wall when I'm in a bad mood it just pisses me off. What I really need is to be able to focus but that's not really a super power. (I keep falling asleep/going off topic/ doing something else when I'm doing homework)

4. If you could invite any 5 famous people or characters to your birthday party, who would you pick?
1.AFRO KEN because thats like the most adorablest (if thats a word) dog ever and he has changeable (?) afros/hairstyles. He's like a better version bad ass version of hello kitty.
2.Cesc Fabregas, he's my number one favorite footballer/futbolista because he's the best (hater if you don't agree)
3.I guess I need some music, maybe that guy from Cobra Starship because I like their song Church of Hot Addiction and he's hot
4.Now all I need is a pinata hm I can't chose between Paris, Britney, Bush, or Rooney. I CHOSE PARIS! You did say it was a party...
5. I have a cute animal, a footballer, a lead singer and a pinata at my party. What else do I need? Food? Well I don't really eat at parties especially not people. Hm... I've got it all I need is magic so I'll have Jesus at my party to make sure everything goes well.

5. If you could live in any film or book, what would you select? Would you want to be one of the characters, or would you want to be you (introduced as a new character)?
I would be in The Adventures of Tom Sawyer as I guess Tom Sawyer because he gets his friends to do his chores and he finds hella money with Huck at the end. They have a lot of fun!

6. Who of your friends would make the best president? I can't wait to know why.
HAHA the first named that popped in my mind was keerati and the second thing that popped in my mind is that that's going to be one fucked up country. haha just kidding, well not really (sorry p). OK i reread the question it says best president. Hm... none of them would make a good PRESIDENT even though they are all very talented in their own way. I'd make the BEST president because in my world there's no laws, you all play by my rules!

7. I used to always trip out that my strawberry Chapstick tasted so strongly like strawberries (and why was I eating so much Chapstick?). Then I realized that it wasn't the taste that was strong; it was the smell. They say that smell is the strongest scent. What is your favorite smell? USE CONNOTATIONS, FIGURATIVE LANGUAGE, OR ANALOGY in your (butter) saucey answer.
Uggh god that word butter and smell just made my nose rot and feel deformed (like Michael Jackson's). Butter is so gross well maybe I'm just sensitive these days. I don't ever have butter at my house. Right now I like vanilla. Whatever my lotion smells like. The one I have right now smells like vanilla. The old one I had smelled like, I don't know what it smelled like but it smelled really good but I always switch and stuff. Vanilla just smells very sweet and calming, I don't like any type of scent that makes my nose fall off like when I walk into places with tons of perfume - especially when its like a million different strong perfumes mixed together uggh...

8. If you could invent a new class for AHS to teach, what would it be?
It would be a foreign language class but teaches you how to cuss in every language (SO USEFUL). I think everyone would get an A+ in that class because its what we do when we're bored anyways. Plus I could be the teacher!

9. Identify any symbol from any film ever (pick your favorite if you can think of many from which to choose). Identify what it means and why you picked it.
I SKIP

10. Will humankind still exist in 300 years?
Probably not. I think the world will be destroyed because not enough people care about the environment. Well I care but I should care more than I do because the world is dying. I think if everyone cared there would be a big difference but the thing is that only a few people do and that's not going to help if everyone else is littering and wasting gas. We will all die in 300 years. Actually we will all die in 100 years because no one lives that long (unless you have special living powers)!

11. What is the most embarrassing song to ever grace your IPOD? Why was it there, may I ask?
I have this song called ROCKSTAR by Bizarre the fat guy from D12. I have it there because it's hella funny. The video's funny too. He always wears this stupid showercap and has stars over his chesticles (man boobs). It's still there and it's not going anywhere. I'm a rockstar babybabybaby I'm a rockstar, I'm actually proud of it haha

12. Corey Chin's brilliant question (and it's got me curious): How much would you charge to clean Mr. Ross' microwave?
Damn, I better get some good money for that (no offense Mr.Ross)! It would probably take me an hour of hard work and because I hate working so much I would charge about 1000 dollars. I would never get hired for that price, which is kind of the point so I don't have to do the work. But if I hella needed money I would do it for like minimum wage T_T (5?) but then I would spend 200 hours doing it which would equal 1000 dollars anyways. I don't want to have a job, my job is to do good in school because my parents pay me for it. Money is a way better motivator than the good of it!

13. Did you support your answers?
sure. (am i suppose to support this one too?

9 :P

2008-01-31T04:22:34Z

CRAP i started this thing wrong because I did this before we went over it in class so i'll just add the part one. i can't believe that mr. ross is making me do this when i could be not doing this.
9 really is a lucky number! I was just doing math homework and couldn't really focus so I checked if there's any blog homework because blog homework is always fun and I read this assignment about how I have to be random for about 12 minutes. That's so easy because I'm random all the time. It's actually fun to do this homework, well not really, it's more fun for a homework, because after my time of unfocusing doing this homework I can expend less time not focusing and more time focusing when I need to so it cuts my unfocusing time in a way I guess. I guess I'm cheating because it says uninterrupted time and I just took a sip of water and checked my email. I always check my email when I don't have anything to do, not that this isn't anything to do. I just like replying messages and seeing what people send me. I hate those chain mails though, like the one about bloody mary, that thing scared the shit out of me for like hella long. I'm really easily scared. Then I found a way to not be scared of these stupid chains. Random people make these things up. Once I made a chain mail and sent it to everyone and people actually sent it out to other people. Yep I was hella bored. It made me realize that chain mails are dumb, and you don't have to send them if you don't finish reading them, the part that says send this to 100000 people or else you'll die because if you don't see it - it doesnt count! Why does it say on the blog homework guide thing say due monday morning but at the end due sunday night? Is sunday night over after 11:59 pm? Then monday morning is like 12 something, then that's the same. OK never mind I get it. Whenever I try to read the ap bio text book my eyes just like wander off and I almost fall asleep, well can you blame me its fucking boring. Its like what they give prisoners in hell to read. Same thing happens when I do my other homework, I can never really focus on stuff like that. Math is ok because it works for people with short attention spans because they're like little blocks and not long ass sentences that explain diagrams of the digestive tract or Darwin's stupid adventures. Darwin looks like evolution. sorry random comment. He does. My friend accidentally described this scientist as fat, ugly with a bad combover aloud and the teacher heard and gave her this dirty look. haha. Why am I thinking about bio? I hate that class. ALOT. ALOT ALOT. DONT TAKE IT IF YOUR CONSIDERING! Well it depends how you think. If your better at memorizing, take the class but if your like me better at thinking/solving don't take it. I hate that class. It sucks. balls. I have to work so hard to get good. Well not the homework because the teacher never checks it, her students do. Labs suck because I'm always stuck with the D club. I can't wait until summer, but that's going to pass by fast and then I'll be a junior (boo) and then summer then senior. I can't wait until the last year of high school, I won't have to do anything. I'm so stressed now I want to be on vacation away from everything. This year passed by hella fast, faster than last year and I thought last year passed by fast. I don't want life after high school to pass by fast, I can't imagine myself old. Well I know I'm going to be like old someday, but I just really don't want to. I'm always the youngest/ one of the youngest, just weird being old. If I could chose I would be 20 forever and ever, 30 seems like an old old age for me to be. I like this blog. I don't have to think. I can just be honest. Like on the short answer interview. I don't have to think of some grand answer, it just comes out, well I have to edit. I'll do that later. Later. I always do things later. I don't know if that's grammatically correct to have one word and a period. Well I check if it is later. Actually, no. I won't have time. Or I'll forget. I don't know. I'm confusing myself. This week is sad. Everything seems not happy, even though it's the first week of second semester and the first week of third quarter, ow my fingers knuckles are starting to hurt now, and there's already alot of work. Some people seem depressed. I don't know sometimes I just feel... like it's not a good day. The warm air has been gone too long. I don't like cold places. Maybe that's why I'm sad. Yes I'm one of those people in california who can't imagine places colder, ow my fingers really hurt now from all of my stupid talk/brain thinking, than san francisco. I've been skiing and stuff but I just don't understand people who would want to live there. Never mind I guess I do because I want to live in tropical places well not really tropical but just warm and sunny, it's just preferences I guess. I don't really like staying in the sun I just like to see sunlight everywhere. I'm thinking of food... I'm not hungry at all but I'm just thinking of what I should eat tomorrow. I've been eating alot of pasta lately. It switches off all the time. I always eat alot of a certain food in blocks of time and then it changes to another thing. I'm kind of sick of it. I want thai food. If you ever go to San Francisco go to King of Thai Noodles, its really good and um my anonymous friend's family owns it. Go bother her on saturdays. OK you don't really know who I'm talking about because I didn't tell you. It seems like I'm talking to someone but I'm really not because I'm kind of talking to myself but I'm talking to like livejournal referring it as "you" or maybe you is whoever you are that is reading this thingie. I don't think anyone will get my stupid random shit when they're reading it. It's like when I tell an inside joke to people who have no idea what the hell I'm saying and they just stare back. Or when I say something to hella people that's an inside joke and all of them stare at me. It's better than people who pretend hahahaha that's hilarious, I want to bitch slap them sometime. Well I'm kind of specifying someone. Never mind, it's not nice I know. I'm just hella irritated. My rooms hella quiet. It's weird. My parents are with my stupid poop brother who's 4. I hear them but it's quiet. I think my time is up. That reminds me of when Flav says your time is up, ok I have to finish this blog, I actually had a lot of thoughts but my head goes blank when I start typing them :P

:P

2008-01-25T17:29:19Z

im so bored
no first period so im stuck in the stupid library for the next 1000000000 hours >:o

MIXTAPE

2008-01-19T05:15:22Z

1. Tired of being sorry- Ringside

The first lines of the song “I don't know why you want to follow me tonight”, reminds me of when Spade was being followed by a guy who supposed to watch him. Spade knows that someone is tailing him. He’s not clear on who or why though. “With all the demons I possess” Sam Spade probably possesses some demons; he was described to even look like Satan on the first page of the book. “Beneath the silver moon” shows the times Sam Spade was out somewhere at night, walking down the street to somewhere with the moonshining. The song continues, “I’m standing in the street” “No one sees me”. Even though Sam Spade is guilty based on the police’s story and people are watching him he is able to lose these stalkers and get around without being noticed.

2.Makes me wonder – maroon 5

This song mostly resembles the relation Brigid and Sam. “Feels so good to be bad/Not worth the aftermath” Brigid likes to be bad, she does a lot of bad things and she usually gets away with it. But in the end Spade decides to turn her in because she is guilty so even though committing those crimes were fun it was not really worth the consequences she has to suffer (probably 20 years in jail like Spade describes). “Give me something to believe in/Cause I don't believe in you” Sam is looking for someone’s words to believe in because nothing Brigid ever says is true. He never believed her. So he needs to decide whose words to believe in other than Brigid’s. “The words you say don't have a meaning”. At the end of the book when Spade decides to turn O’Shaughnessy in for Archer’s murder she tells him that he can’t and she loves him. The words she says don’t really have any meaning anymore because she lies all the time so she can’t be trusted. Also it’s probably what she told Thursby, and he’s dead.

3. When you were Young - The Killers

“Can we climb this mountain, I don’t know/Higher now than ever before”. Spade always takes the challenge. First he was offered money from Brigid, than Cairo and now he is offered a huge amount of money from Gutman but as the money increases so does the difficulty of the task Gutman’s offer is the highest but also the most difficult, Spade must obtain the Maltese falcon. “He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus/But he talks like a gentleman”. Again this goes back to the Spade looking like Satan issue, I’m not religious but I’m pretty sure Jesus and Satan look very different. Also Spade probably talks like a gentleman considering he’s a detective and must work with many clients (who he has to be polite to). “They say the devil's water, it ain’t so sweet/You don’t have to drink right now/But you can dip your feet” Brigid’s tricks are like the devil’s water; Sam Spade has to be very careful when it comes to her. He can dip his feet a bit but not fall for her traps because he could end up like Thursby, shot dead. Brigid can be devilish because she always lies and makes men fall for her for her own benefit (and then she kills them, like Thursby).

4. Game and 50 - How we do

“This is how we do/Nobody do it like we do it so show us some love” Spade and Archer are the best detectives; nobody else really does it like them. Spade is a better crime solver than even the police. They expect love from others (respect and stuff)for what they do but in dollar form, because it’s their job.
“The hell if I care, I'm just here to get my cash/Bougie ass bitches, you can kiss my ass”
Spade really doesn’t care about Gutman or Cairo, he’s just in it for the money that they are paying him, or to get more information that will help him solve a case. He’s only working with them to get the Falcon. What he really thinks of them is that they can all kiss his… “Fuck 'em one-on-one/We wrap up ya punk ass, stunt 'n ya done” Sam Spade doesn’t exactly beat up people one by one but it sort of symbolizes how he solves his cases. He gets through one obstacle at a time until he reaches the reason (who killed who, or whatever he is trying to solve).

5.Just Jack- Starz in their eyes

“They'll be making sure you stay amused/They'll fill you up with drugs and booze/Maybe you'll make the evening news” They (those after the falcon) keep Spade amused with their stories of the falcon (at the time Spade still has no idea what it is). Then they drug Spade and he passes out. But Spade has probably already made the evening news because he’s tied with Archer’s murder and he’s the number one suspect of Thursby’s murder. “Since you became a VIPerson/It's like your problems have all worsened” Spade becomes a very important person. Brigid, Cairo and Gutman all need his help and the police believe he was the one who shot Thursby and this is how his problems worsen. “Wrapped up in the cloak of fake glamour, getting lost in the camera/Well footprints are fools gold, diamonds crusts on their one off plimsolls”, like when they discovered the Maltese Falcon. They thought that beneath the enamel layer was a jewel encrusted bird but instead they found a fake copy. They’ve been tracing footprints to find the real deal but instead they were following fools gold and diamond crusts the whole time, well actually not even. They get a regular metal bird.

food

2007-12-15T05:34:49Z

This is the hardest blog topic ever. I love and hate so many foods at the same time (like I eat green and blue M&Ms but the not the other colors). It will take forever for me to think of a food I want to write about; sometimes I take forever to even decide what I want to eat. It always depends on my mood and the weather. Since I hate cold weather I’ll write about foods I eat in the summer.

I don’t really eat meals like breakfast, lunch, and dinner during the summer. During the summer it’s more like I can’t finish it now so I’ll eat it later or even I’m hungry but I’m too lazy to walk and get food. During vacation in Oahu there was a lot of good food there (even though I think native Hawaiian food tastes crappy – no offense to anyone). It’s not very hot over there but the weather is nice. In the afternoon I would have pina colada (I don’t have the squiggly thing on my computer) while I sit in the shade under a tree. The pineapple and fruity flavors mixed with creamy coconut soothes the itchiness of my light sunburn (which I unpleasantly received due to not using much sun screen at the beach). The smell of fresh fruit and humid air relaxes my mind from thoughts of all the work I have to do when I get home. It has a very exotic taste but its soothing at the same time. Unfortunately I never really get to finish any of my food because my stupid brother always cries and then I’m forced to sacrifice my food to him.

Dinner at home is my least favorite meal because I never want to eat; dinner on vacation is my favorite because the food is good. After all the activities during vacation, during dinnertime I have enough stomach space for a meal (I have really weird eating patterns). Anyways there was this restaurant that served Japanese food, but it was really different. When I go to Japanese restaurants I usually think of sushi, but there was no sushi there. In the restaurant they serve you raw seasoned meats, fishes and vegetables (on the menu) that you grill at your table (there’s a circular barbeque thing in the middle and a machine thing on the ceiling, I don’t know what it is called but it sucks the smoke out so you’re not choking to death). The shrimp is crunchy and juicy and has a nice flavor on the outside. The salad was unique. It had an interesting dressing with a bit of wasabi tossed with crunchy leaves of lettuce, chunks of tuna, and slices of avocado and fruit. It was very tasty and had a lot of strong flavor to it. I don’t really remember how the beef was like; I didn’t eat much of it. I prefer seafood and red meat fish (like salmon and tuna). The food was smoky and peppery but was never overwhelming; everything was balanced.

I can’t say those were my favorite foods but they were good experiences. I don’t have a favorite food. For me, the taste is important but the experience of eating is what I’ll remember. Like if I’m having a lot of fun with my friends or family or I’m eating somewhere nice. Those are the main things that I will remember and not just how tasty the food was. Food usually relates to the weather and environment. Like summer+chocolate=EW! but winter+chocolate=yum and summer+pina colada=heart while winter+pina colada=brain freeze.

jesshatesdolls @ 2007-12-05T11:05:00

2007-12-06T04:15:50Z

1. If you could be a fly on anybody's wall, on whose wall would you perch? Why? What would you do with the information?
I guess I have to answer this question all the questions are required... I really don't have the attention span to listen to people's hour long conversations especially if its important (I should pay attention more if its important, but I can't). If it was really important and I forgot everything I would be in a lot of trouble. I can imagine myself getting hired to be a little fly and not get any information, and then be killed. I don't like spying anyways, I think it's a waste of time and it's creepy. Well I have to answer this so, If I had to be a fly perched on someone's wall I would be perched on one of my teacher's classroom walls so when they're grading my tests I can buzz "give Jess an A give Jess an A". The distraction will make my them confused and mark all my answers correct!

2. What is your favorite piece of art? Describe what it looks like. Why do you like it so much? How does it make you feel? Does it tell a story? Have symbolism?
I like modern art but not too modern. Well I like all art but my favorites are from the times of impressionism to fauvism. My favorite painter is Van Gogh. I like all his art. My favorite painting is Irises. I like that painting because Van Gogh uses color very well and his brush strokes are strong but he depicts the scene with his brush and paint so delicately. He was a great artist but people didn't appreciate his work until after his suicide. I saw the painting in person at the Getty in Los Angeles. His art is very unique and identifiable, it's not very hard to spot if a painting by Van Gogh. He has his own style in painting but his fundamentals and basics are exceptional (I've seen the sketches in books). Great art and paintings always come from an artist who the fundamentals of art very well. The painting is just a nice scenery in the summer. It might not mean something religious or historical like other famous paintings but it shows perspective and quality which is very important to me when I look at art. I feel sunlight when I see the painting, the color and texture radiates warmth.

3. If you could choose your parents, how would they be? Describe how they look, act, and parent. What do they do (for work, hobbies, etc)?
I wouldn't change my parents even though we don't always get a long. I think overall people have the same amount of good and bad traits, it's just that we have to learn to deal with them (if we can). I've already learned how to deal with my parents this year and why would I want to go through a 15 year process of doing that again? What I would change about my parents is my mom is really crazy sometimes and she is bipolar and then there is my dad who has a bad temper and is also really crazy sometimes. I've learned not to piss them off this year. All it matters to me is that they are nice to me, and they are most of the time. Materialistic stuff does not mean much to me. I do love getting new stuff but it's not the most important thing in life. I wouldn't switch my parents for anyone else, they aren't perfect parents but I don't think that any perfect parents exist.

4. If you could live in any decade, which one would it be and why? ELABORATE. What opportunities would you take advantage of in said decade?
I would live in 2010 (question doesn't say it has to be the past haha) because I will be 18 - 28 years old during that time. I like the idea that I'm 18 but not 28. Well I'll be 21 in between so it's good. I have to be old someday. That's the year I'll graduate, meaning after that I will go to college. I'll be older but not OLD. College is important because it'll help get a future job so during school I have to really focus, but during break I'll travel, have reunions with my friends, go to parties, catch up on months of sleep, stay in hot weather, have fun. I'll have to go to work after college though, which sucks because I hate that word.I really don't care if I don't love my job as long as I get paid a lot, because I'm probably not going to love my job anyways! I think 18-28 is the best 10 years of a persons life, I'll still be young but independent.

5. If you could/had to be any Disney character, who would it be and why?
I don't really like Disney Characters. If I was a character I would be Afro-Ken, but that doesn't count. If I had to be a DISNEY character I would be the cat in Alice and Wonderland because I would live in a strange world and I would be really smart. (I think the cat is smart it just likes to mess with stupid Alice's mind). I could cause trouble when I'm bored and get away with it because the cat can get away with everything. I would be the cat from Alice in Wonderland because that cat can do anything!

6. There is a difference between the moral man and the criminal in that the moral man has a legitimate reason to steal. Support or refute this idea (that a person's objectively bad deeds can be justified by the subjectivity of their life).
I'm guessing this is a fancy way to say what separates a criminal from a good man is their reason to steal. A criminal steals for more money and a good man steals to keep his family and himself alive. I mostly agree and somewhat disagree. People who have nothing and need to maintain their family and send their children to school will steal if they have no other way. People who are victims of natural disaster may have nothing so they have to steal for something to eat. I wouldn't steal in a normal situation where I didn't eat lunch and was hungry because I can just walk home and get money or eat at home. I would steal (although I hate to admit that I would steal) if I had no choice, like if an earthquake had destroyed all of the Bay Area and there wasn't any food at home. I don't think there is nothing wrong with doing that because it is part of our human instincts to do whatever we have to, to stay alive, even if its wrong. I somewhat disagree because a person could say they are stealing for their children because their children have no food. But their child may not have food on the table because the parents are taking all the money to go snort coke. That is very different from the other case where natural disaster strikes.

movie

2007-12-03T07:07:42Z

MOST PATHETIC MOVIE EVER!!!

(The whole movie is like an inside joke)

Adventures of Bai-Ome Kai

(um who would pay to watch this?)

Bai-Ome Kai is a fortuneteller from Fanamimral. He wears a blue robe, beads and a ridiculous bright red turban poorly wrapped around his head. We may have seen him from another movie, but… anyways.

Bai-Ome Kai starts his journey off in his crystal ball where he sees his destiny. His destiny says that he has served in Fanamimral as a fortuneteller long enough and he must explore the outside world to complete his life. Actually the crystal ball is really blurry and Bai-Ome for the first time is unsure of what it is so takes a guess of the meaning in the clouds. Taking the advice, he decides to leave Fanamimral. He goes to the United States.

There he meets Bobo, a foreign languages expert. Bobo is originally from a place called (very long name) Ori Raspied Nas Ajun Rupote Ciro. Bobo uses his foreign language expertise to help Bai-Ome Kai in translation and communication. They become very good friends. Unfortunately Bobo is at school most of the time so Bai-Ome must wander on the streets alone because Bai-Ome does not like to stay at home (he stays at Bobo’s home which is extremely tiny and stuffy). Out on the street Bai-Ome tries to tell a policeman his fortune for good money. The policeman gets pissed because he thinks Bai-Ome is trying to steal his wallet and Bai-Ome never stops bothering the police so the police arrest him. (scene where Bai-Ome is being chased after the police and police catches him by his beads and pulls him in,black and white because I like black and white) To get Bai-Ome out of jail, Bobo comes and breaks into the jail (scene at night, Bobo has like some axe in his hand to cut down the wall). They are both wanted in the United States and run across the border over to Mexico. (Yes Bobo has been expelled from his school-duh)

They hide in a school in central Mexico, in disguise as students to hide from the cops in America. There they meet Arebsnepi, a master guitarist originally from Gonkbak, Landaith. Arebsnepi owns a two-sided guitar. One side of his guitar is red (Big Red) and the other side is blue (Baby Blue). It’s like his magical guitar. He does not really reveal the reason why he is at the school.

Bai-Ome and Bobo are now wanted for 5 million dollars. Bai-Ome sees this poster inside his crystal ball. Bobo is completely shocked. How could they be wanted for so much? All they did was annoy the police and run? Well they have not killed anyone! But Arebsnepi was not shocked. He hadn’t told them yet, the danger, it had been eating him up because he has kept it for so long. He was scared to be heard by others though, so he quietly told Bai-Ome and Bobo. The reason why he had been going to school here was also the same as them, he was hiding but not from the United States police but from this evil that had been stealing talents. Bai-Ome and Bobo lean closer. This evil is the reason why they are rewarded for 5 million dollars. Arebsnepi isn’t really sure why this evil is after them but he knows (flash back of why he knows) … suddenly Bai-Ome senses clouds forming in his crystal ball, they must run. They run with everything they need (well actually Bai-Ome just brings his crystal ball, Bobo just brings his foreign languages book, and Arebsnepi brings his guitar, none of them remember food because they’re dumb). But it’s too late because they have been found, not by the police - but by the evil…evil school teacher because she would not let them run from the city because there was a test the next day. But they had to run so Arebsnepi started to play a song on his guitar, the worst song ever he started playing Stars are Blind really loud and the teacher goes into a coma. (There’s lightning coming out of his guitar)They run.

They run and sail all across the world from this evil. They get money by Bai-Ome’s fortune telling and Arebsnepi’s guitar playing on the streets, Bobo doesn’t really do anything except for translate. The movie is going to end… You might be expecting them to face this evil, but the truth is that they find out that Arebsnepi is actually crazy and the evil thing doesn’t really exist (his flash back wasn't really anything it was just a random scene)and the ominous clouds in the crystal ball is a result from bad crystal ball care. The number they saw on the crystal ball wasn’t actually 5 million it was just 5 dollars but the poster was next to an egg stand so it looked like there were 6 zeroes behind the 5. They find all of this out 10 years later and they're living in Tahiti. The movie is over.

I’m probably fired because I wrote such a crappy movie. The names I used come from... well I'm not going to tell unless someone is really curious. All my characters are guys. I won't explain either unless someone is really curious.My movie reminds me of family guy because it has no plot or a really lame plot and it's mostly about the random stuff that happens.

invention

2007-11-17T04:08:58Z

There are just way too many stupid inventions in this world. If I invented something it would not only be stupid, but it would be somewhat useful. My invention would be a little pet thing that can do everything. It would look exactly like Afro-Ken because I love Afro-Ken. I would invent it to be extremely tiny, small enough to stand on my palm. But it would be a little different than Afro-Ken have a different colored nose and eye in case I get sued. If the owners of Afro-Ken still decide to sue me I would just tell them that my character is inspired by Afro-Bear so they can't, or I would them it's Wig-ken or Wig-Bear. Anyways like Afro-Ken my little animal would come in different hairstyles! This might cause the owners to want to sue me even more but I’ll find ways to get away with it. I would have to give it a name. I'm really bad at giving stuff names I always come up with dumb names. Hmm… I don’t think the name is very important, it will come to me one day…eventually…

My invention would be able to do EVERYTHING. My little dog can tell me everything and do my homework and chores, whatever needs to be done. Well my dog would be able to tell fortunes, do work, and make anything appear/disappear. My dog can do anything but because it is my invention, it will only do things that I want it to. His brain has been altered to be very like my own, except HELLA more logical and intelligent. Since I am feeling selfish right now I will not make any of these magical Afro-Ken looking dogs for anyone else. Instead I would make people cheap replicas that really don’t do anything except look cute. My dog can’t be hacked because he is not made of electronics, I’m not really sure what he’s made of, I guess something like magical cotton that can do anything and add stuff to it and boom it has been created. Even though he’s not made electronically it can do everything computers and TVs can do because... well I don’t have a good reason. If this wonderful creation were made, people would try to steal him from me! Thank God he self defends himself! If someone were to attack my poor little dog, he would kick the asshole right in the balls just like I would! What a smart dog, I'm so proud. My dog could also be beneficial to others even though I’m not willing to share because I would tell My dog to make it rain food, clean water, and medicine where it is needed in the world. These supplies will come from rich people who have too much and really don’t deserve it. They’ll later find out that they’re broke when they are purchasing something with one of their credit cards. I'd never have to do homework, work and I'd never have to go to school! All I need is my dog ... unfortunately my invention is obviously imaginary (boohoo). Yeah you can say it was a really stupid invention but it was an invention that could do everything...except it wasn't real

interview

2007-11-09T05:10:27Z

im doing this now because i dont have much hw today...

1. What is your favorite book?

Haha very funny.Uh...
This is a really hard question because other than books in school, I don't read. I try, but I fail. OK I admit it I don't try that hard. Since I can' think of a favorite book right now because I haven't read for months I will write about my least favorite book. I have alot of these least-favorite-books because I don't like books in general. One from last year (that was really bad) was Catcher in the Rye because I thought Holden was really weird and I didn't like to hear him "talk" or read what he was thinking/saying. It was really weird reading the book because 1. the book is weird and 2. My teacher's name was also Holden, which for some reason just was strange even though I'm not really sure how. I don't know, it wasn't THAT bad but it was boring and I don't even remember what the story was about. I gave up half way and didn't even try while reading the first half of that book. I just bullshited all the homework and even the final essay and totally got away with it because Mr. Holden was a really nice teacher. He gave me a B! Maybe that's why I don't remember what that book was about...

2. If you could/had to live in any country besides the United States, where would it be?

If I had tons of money and time I would live in a lot of places and travel alot.I would live in Australia because it looks like a place I want to live, near the ocean and nice weather. I would also like to live in Spain because everything seems nice there. I would just lay in the sun and sleep all day, watch a La Liga match in the afternoon, eat dinner and party at night and then just go back to sleep again. Unfortunately my spanish is not only terrible but also insulting. I would live in Japan because they have automatic toilet seat warming systems so I would never have to sit on a cold toilet seat in my house again. But I would only live there for a really short time because I hate cold places. Anywhere with good weather, good food, good views, good people, good activities and good entertainment is a great place to live! Also TONS of holidays so I never have to go to work!

3. Who is your favorite superhero?

I don't like superheroes because I believe that they don't do crap and they don't exist. They don't exist because no one is saving us from George Bush (sorry if whoever is reading is a republican) and they don't do crap because they just like showing themselves off in ridiculously looking spandex and showing off their "skills".

4. If you could change any one law, what would it be?

I don't know that many laws because I'm not that into law. Hm...wow I really don't know that many laws. I don't know if it's a law but I think that gay/lesbian people should be allowed to get married because everyone's equal and should have equal rights and have same privileges. People shouldn't be treated differently because they are different. Everyone's different. Also I would change all those really dumb laws like I read some where in this state "animals are not allowed to mate publicly 100 meters within church area" or "you are not allowed to eat oranges in the shower". How the hell would they arrest someone for eating oranges in a shower? Shouldn't the person who turns them in get arrested for watching people shower?

5. Is life a matter of reality or is it all just based on perception?

Life is based on perception because if everyone's perception changed all of a sudden then your life would seem to completely change even though everything stays the same. Opinions is the only thing that makes this world.

6. Is it better to be too hot or too cold?

Too hot is much better than too cold! If it is WAY too hot, I would complain but I CAN NOT stand the stupid cold! I've been to tropical places and to me it's not hot at all. The first year of my life was all summer because I lived in San Juan where it's 90 degrees all year round. Heat is ok, Cold is not. Only problem with hot weather means mosquitoes - I have dramatic reactions to their stings.

7. Which is better: to get in a car accident that isn't your fault and lose a leg or to get into a car accident that is your fault and kill an old lady?

I never ever ever want to kill anyone and I never ever ever want to lose my leg! BOO! THIS QUESTION SUCKS BALLS! I HATE THIS QUESTION!

8. Do you believe that pain and suffering is a necessary part of life?

Of course. I hate people who have no pain or suffering and seem "perfect" because they're fake. If I was happy 24/7 I wouldnt be happy anymore because if something good happened to me I wouldnt feel anything it would just seem to be normal. It hurts to suffer but then it feels better to have something good happen. It's normal.

9. Is animal testing acceptable?

Animal testing is acceptable to a certain extent. I think that testing is necessary for results but I don't believe that we should abuse animals just because they are "not as good". Animals are life too, they shouldn't be treated like they don't exist and they should be cared for if they suffer. Some testers pour acid over poor animals that they know will damage them. That is completely unacceptable and disturbing that anyone would want to torture animals.

10. Do you believe that ghosts exist?

Yes because there isn't really any proof that they don't exist. No one has been able to explain any ghost cases with science! I don't believe that they mean any harm. Ghosts probably get angry just like humans do but I don't think they want to hurt humans. I don't like to think of them as ghosts but as spirits. I respect spirits because most of the time they don't bother us but we living people always poke into their space and make those stupid ghost hunting shows. I would be really scared to meet them though especially if I piss them off accidently.

11. Do you believe that you can never have too much of a good thing?

No because if everything is so good then nothing seems good anymore and it just seems normal. Really spoiled kids feel betrayed when they don't get things their way and bitch about the stupidest things. It's not stereoyping because "spoiled" is a type of personality, if i said "rich" that would be stereotyping.If people are always giving in to what they say they start to have these spoiled rotten personalities. If super good things always happen then good things seem like bad things and only super super good things seem like good things. I hope I'm making sense.

12. Do you believe that school is the best way to make a person smarter?

Nope. The best way to be a smarter person is through personal experience. I don't believe smarts that count come from text books. Well book smarts definitely add alot to your life but other smarts are more important. For examples if someone goes to college when they are 12 - in my book that's an idiot. Because they will have to face the real world with book knowledge that doesnt teach you anything about the real world. If talents came with prices, creativity would cost infinite$ more than knowing stuff. Natural talent is priceless and does not come from school.

13. Do you believe that Free Market Capitalism is fair? If not, what would you suggest?

I don't know what that is. Call me stupid,whatever.

14. Do you believe that war can be justified?

No because I believe that most wars don't justify anything. Unless it is the rich people picking on poor people. The poor people have every right to beat the shit out of those rich assholes. Most of the time war is only for power and money of the political leaders of the country so I don't like war unless it benefits the people (as in the average "lesser" people). I don't like war, it should be avoided. It is the last solution people should take to solve their problems.

15. If you could switch your gender, but it had to be permanent, would you?

I guess I have to answer this question because I already skipped two. Um well... no quiero tener huevos! I'm just kidding, (ignore that if you don't know spanish). I can't imagine myself as a man that's just way too strange even though I'm not girly, but still, that would be really strange if I was a guy. I'd definitely stay a girl for alot of reasons, I like being a girl better... well not that I really know how it is to be a guy.

16. Do you think you are anyone's favorite person in the world?
I don't like to think about stuff like that because it is too stressful. Having too many expectations only leads to disappointment because not all of your expectations can be met. I don't have much expectations. I just am myself and hope people don't have a problem with that. I don't feel disappointed. But when I do I don't think about it because there is nothing I can change.

hobby

2007-11-05T02:14:06Z

    I have alot of hobbies but I will write about the hobby I thought that I would never be quite obsessed about. If you have ever had me in your PE class you probably already know that - I don't run. That kind of rules out all the sports I could play, I use to swim but the chlorine worsened my excercise induced asthma (whatever the doctor said it was) and now I run even slower, great! OK so I admit its a combination between lazy and asthma but the asthma part leads to the lazy part. I don't swim anymore and I don't play any sports unless you consider hula hooping a sport but no one would watch hula hooping for 3 hours straight - its boring. So you get the point...
I'm a big football fan I really like watching, there's so many reasons why, I don't even know how i got sucked into watching it. I call the sport football because it's professionally known as football/association football and I don't understand where the hell the word "soccer" came from it's such a weird word. Whatever, yeah I live in America but still that word still sounds weird to me so I say football/footy/futbol/futebol even though I'm not english and I don't speak spanish well and whatever that last language is. I never thought I would be a fan because I hate sports, I don't play, and I don't watch 99% of them. Yet for some reason I just kind of got into the game by myself. My mom use to like basketball but she's old now and my brother is 3 years old so she doesn't really care anymore. My dad use to watch footy like me but um it was SO long ago that it was when Diego Maradona was actually not fat and not on drugs! (Now if you are a Maradona fan don't kill me for saying that because we all know it is the truth) My parents never really have any influence on me in anything anyways.
    When I was younger I thought that those people who would wake up at 3 in the morning to watch an important game were crazy but later on I realized I am one of those crazy people. I use to not understand people who were so into it and now I don't understand those who are not! Sometimes when I'm really tired I'll turn on the TV to the espanol channels (the channels in spanish I'm not sure what they're actually called - because american channels only have american football or baseball) and watch whatever game is on although most of the time I have never even heard of the teams. It's just relaxing it takes my mind off of everything. Of course it gets way more exciting when the teams are actually known and even better when it's my favorite team or clubs. It's a great feeling when your team wins no matter what sport you watch, it can't be put into words but it just feels good to know that the team you like is the best.
    One of the things I like is that I think it's a really skilled game. It's much harder to use your feet, sometimes head than to use your arms and hands. Also I don't like watching those games where there's a goal or point every 3 seconds, it's not exciting when someone scores every minute you're watching (although some argue it to be more exciting). It requires alot of footwork to get a ball into the goal. The game is basically skill based, not much violence, actually it is quite violent - but not much compared to american football which - in my opinion is purely crashing and tackling each other and being really huge and muscular. In football although most are in the 6 foot range there are players that are like my height (pretty short) such as Maradona and players that are 6'8 (?) like Peter Crotch. It shows that how huge/small the person is, won't limit them as long as they have talent. Other than the game itself, I like the excitement, the unpredictableness, the culture in the world of football (sounds lame i know), the things I learn (languages, more about the game), and I think some of the players are cute. Well the last one shouldn't matter but it's a plus! But I am not one of those stupid fan girls (I don't love Cristiano Ronaldo EW)! Anyways did I mention it is the most important game in the whole entire world? Maybe it's just me, but the air is different when it's the world cup than when it is like a different sport competition like, um, wow I don't even know the names of world competitions for other sports! I don't really like any other sports.
    If someone hates football, I really don't understand them. Everyone is definitely entitled to their own opinion, but for their own safety I tell them not to be so public about it if they ever leave the country. I can completely imagine those people going to somewhere like England where it's so huge and getting the shit beaten out of them. In a way this a threat to footy haters to become footy lovers. I'm not trying to be funny, it's true. There's definitely more benefits than saving your ass from being beat by being a football fan. How can anyone not find the funny moments entertaining? Whether it is enjoying seeing people cry like a baby, seeing someone headbutting someone brutally, or laughing at players who run really funny. My favorite funny moment (or atleast the one I am thinking of at this moment) is at the 2006 world cup when Wayne Rooney stomped on Carvhalo's (uh spelling?) huevos (balls). Of course my team is neither! My team is Espana (Spain) I love how they play and how they play fair, everything about that team is so loveable! Most of all they have tons of potential because their players are mostly very young so they definitely have what it takes to be at the top, all they need is time.
    People don't know how I - who hate sports would be so obsessed about football, I mean I don't even know. Every Saturday I have art classes with my friend Francy (nickname,she goes to Berkeley) and half the crap we talk about is like the Champions League. Knowing alot about football adds to your conversation region. Knowing stuff about anything does, but especially football because a lot of people are into it. I can't imagine me going to art class for 2 hours and talking about stupid girly stuff, scares me to think about it. Usually she makes a FALSE remark about teams and players I like and then we just go on and on.
    My parents always bug me about watching TV but they never bug me when I'm watching a futbol game! They actually encourage me they think it is a good thing! It's one of the only things my parents support me in other than getting good grades! It brings me and my family together, which is rare and it brings me and my friends together. Not to mention it brings the world together.

animal

2007-11-03T03:17:33Z

If I could be an animal I would be a pigeon. You might ask why the hell would you want to be a pigeon? Well there are many benefits to being a pigeon, not really well kind of, but I don't know what other animal i would be other than a stupid pigeon so I will explain why I would choose to be a pigeon. I would like to be a pigeon because no one cares about pigeons and when they do care about pigeons they just yell "stupid pigeons!" I wish my life was like that. I wish no one cared about whatever they thought of me and if they have something to say about me they would yell it to my face like they do to pigeons. Also pigeons can't be hunted because what kind of hunter would waste bullets and karma on killing a pigeon? I would never kill but if I hunted I would hunt something that's actually worth my effort and karma. Also pigeons get in everywhere for free (for example: the stupid pigeons at concerts at stadiums). If I was a pigeon I could have front row seats or be even closer for free! Pigeons don't even have to work or anything all they do is peck at whatever they're given at the park and fly away. Pigeons also crap on whoever they want. OK that's not very nice, but, whatever, no one cares about stupid pigeons anyways.

Quiz results

BEAR

I'm a bear? OK I like bears but I don't think that description fits me - I'm pretty lazy but I'm not that lazy. I'm not even as lazy as half the people i know. Well it depends mostly I'm lazy because I'm doing stuff I don't like to do such as studying. I do all my housework and homework I just really hate studying. The bear description says I'm stubborn - I guess because both of my parents are extremely stubborn and bi-polar but I'm not stubborn at all compared to them. It says I only do things for my benefit which is bullshit because I actually try not to do things for my benefit because its selfish and I don't like to be like that and I definitely don't like others seeing me like that. That's one of the last things i want people to think of when they think of me. Nasty temper, only when I have to defend myself. I give people chances but there are only so many chances to give I'm not going to let anyone step on me. My parents never defended me ever so I feel like I'm by myself every time I have to stand up for myself, but I'm not scared. I don't like to attack other people but I can't have other people attacking me. So I guess I am stubborn. It's right about the patience and heart part. Usually quizzes can't tell that much about a person because they ask only a few specific questions.